Hiding

Last winter I had a few guys that were pursuing me. They are all very nice and I'm sure will go far in their own lives. However, I don't want to end up with any of them. I'll give you a little background on each.

~Boy #1 and I had a geology class together. We sat by each other and had a fun time. During the winter he started taking me out to lunch a lot and we texted a few times a week. I tried to make it clear that I didn't want anything more than friendship, but he didn't get the hint. I am too scared to be open with him, but he never took me on a date or introduced me to his friends or anything. He is one of those guys that is really into looks and things like that. He took out a $10,000 loan to pay for a car. He didn't have any money because he just barely got off his mission. I don't want a guy that is so focused on that kind of stuff. He almost hooked up with this other girl and I was hoping it would work out, but it didn't. So now we move on to...
~Boy #2! He was my FHE brother last fall and his apartment was all pretty good friends with girls in my apartment because they are all from Oregon. I considered dating him, but then I realized he was one of those extremely weird guys who are totally in their own little world. He is very smart, though. He also took the sneaky approach and never actually asked me on a date or said he liked me or anything. He knows Boy #1 because they were in the MTC together. He also knows...
~Boy #3 because we were all in the same ward. Boy #3 was my FHE brother in the winter. He's really nice, but doesn't have the most direction in his life. He is the only one that actually took me on 2 formal dates. However, he is also the one that got kicked out of school. I never found out why, but I knew from that one thing that he wasn't the guy for me.

I thought that after school got out and we all went our seperate ways for the summer that they would move on and find new girls. However things didn't quite work out that way. Boy #3 texts me almost every day. I try to push him to ask girls out and be social that way, but I don't think it's working. One good thing is that he's not coming back to Rexburg anytime soon, so that is nice! He's a good friend and it's fun to talk to him, but I worry that he might be picking up vibes that aren't there. Boy #2 emails me quite a bit. I email him back, but I make sure that my responses are a little delayed so he doesn't get the idea that I'm waiting around to hear from him. He always talks about all these things he wants to do with me in the fall (ex. bonfires, going shooting, attending FA 100 events together). I don't say that I'm going to attend any of these things and usually just ignore it. I try to bring up other things do distract him, but I don't think it's working. I'm hoping that things will be like they were in the winter and he'll just forget about me for awhile while he's in his own little world. Boy #3 I probably the one I could most see myself with, but it won't happen. I'm sure he'll try to take me out to lunch more and take me on dates, but I'm going to put forth more of an effort to avoid him so he doesn't get his hopes up. I haven't talked to him much this summer so I thought he had found other things to occupy his mind. I talked to him today and now a new obsticle has appeared. He wants me to go with him, his parents, his little brother, and 2 of his other friends on a medditeranean cruise next may. He said the full cost would be $1500 with airfare and everything. I'm not gonna lie, it sounds amazing. But I know that would be the worst thing if I was trying to tell him I don't want to date him. I think I'm going to go into hiding for the next 10 years.