It's Time

Someone asked me last night what I had been doing all summer. I hate it when people ask me that because I can only give a pretty depressing answer. I told them I've been working. What else? Reading lots of books. What else? Watching movies with my parents. What else? Um... that about sums up my summer. When I think about it, it makes me kind of sad that I didn't do more. Our family did spend a weekend going to Yellowstone and that was amazingly fun and we did pick huckleberries a couple of times, but I don't have anything else to show for my months of being home besides a fairly good tan. I was thinking last night that I would really like to go somewhere new. And not so much just to visit, I would like to live somewhere I've never been before. Not long term, maybe just a year or so. I would really like to live somewhere in Europe. It doesn't really matter to me much where. But the problem with that is 1) I don't have any money and 2) I need to finish school first. At least my bachelors. Just once I want to do something worth talking about. I've never been the child that my parents can really brag about or even talk more than a few minutes about. But I don't want to do it for them, I want to do it for me. I want to get away from all the people around here whose main goal is to get married and have children and stay in Idaho. I'm in no way saying that's not a great goal, it's just not what I want. I want to get married, sure. But more for the reason that I want a friend I can share my adventures with. Someone I can talk to and will listen to me. Someone who wants to help me do things that I don't have the courage to do by myself. One of my friends is forgoing her wedding reception to go to Europe because she loves it so much over there. I wouldn't want to do that because I think a reception is a good way to say goodbye to the old life and hello to the new phase of your life. But I'm still insanely jealous that she gets to visit Europe twice before I have gone even once. I know this post is all over the place and that things don't really flow together all that well, but I have to get it out of my head or I'll go crazy. I think I've had too much time to think about things lately. I need something to occupy my mind. It's time to go back to school.