And Now We Begin

This week is the start of many things for me. Today was the first day of school and the second day in my apartment. School wasn't too bad. I don't really get that nervous for classes (although in some cases I probably should be). My classes I went to today are both going to be very interesting. I'm taking a business class for my cluster. When I went to class, I was 1 of 4 girls in a class of about 30. I'm used to classes being female-dominated because I mostly take art and music, so this will be a new experience. My other class is a class I probably should've taken when I was a freshman. It's Art 101- Intro to Visual Arts. I feel very old in that class because most of the other students are freshman and I'm a junior. But it does seem like a fun and easy class, so I'm looking forward to it. I was supposed to have another class, but the teacher won't be here the first week so we'll meet for the first time next tuesday.
My apartment is pretty nice. It's a lot bigger than either of the other apartments I've lived in and I get my own room. I'm just not quite sure what to think about my roommates. One of them is very nice and will talk to me and try to get to know me. I found out tonight that she's going into nursing. The other roommates are going to be interesting. They're not the most.....happy bunch. I don't see them smile or joke around as much. When I walk into the apartment and they're in the living room, I usually try to smile and say hi. The response I usually get back is a blank stare and sometimes I'll get a hello back. If we're both in front of the vanity getting ready for the day, I try to at least make eye contact once and smile, but I usually don't get any response. It's a little difficult for me because I'm not the most outgoing person and tend to rely on others to get the ball rolling. I have been doing my best to be friendly. For me, I think I'm being really outgoing and getting out of my comfort zone because it's hard for me to make friends with someone I don't feel is giving back those friendly vibes. Other people might not see my actions as that bold, but I'm doing my best.
Well, that's all for right now. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night because I kept having this dream that I was married to this guy that seemed to only tolerate my presence. I think it may have represented how I think my roommates view me. And also because I'm very afraid that I'll marry someone who doesn't really like me all that much. That I would just be settling for that. But I kept having that dream over and over throughout the night so I didn't sleep well. So I'm going to pray for better dreams tonight. Sweet dreams!