The Crawl

I decided to start this blog with this video.  It's called "The Crawl" and was shown to me by my sister awhile ago.  I've been thinking about it these last few days in relation to this semester.  This semester has really taken its toll on me.  This has probably been my hardest semester with class, or at least the most time consuming.  Taking an art studio class, being in 3 orchestras, and taking an accounting class (which always takes me forever anyways because I am not a math person) has really been hard on me.  I counted last night, this semester I've played in 8 different concerts, had 6-7 night rehearsals, and went to Sun Valley for a day all for classes that have nothing to do with graduation.  I know I should've cut back on that a little bit, but I love playing in the symphony and I don't regret it at all. 

I've also been working 2 jobs, averaging about a 20 hour workweek.  I used to be able to do my homework at work, but that didn't last for too long because of some changes at work that keep me more on my toes.  I'm also trying to plan a wedding.  I'm not doing a very good job, but I did get the dress, tux, and most of our engagement pics! (I still have to edit the rest of the pics)  I'm very grateful to my mom who has been helping me keep my life in order. 

The thing that I wish I could've spent more time with is my wonderful fiance'!  Things have been very stressful this semester.  We've had a lot of crappy things happen that have put a little bit of a strain on our relationship.  But when it comes down to it, I love having him in my life!  He has told me that when he starts getting down on himself, that I need to tell him about things that I need help with and it will snap him out of his schlump and he focus on me.  He does everything he can to help me.  I'm looking forward to starting our lives together and to starting a family with him!  I know he's going to be a great father.  We both have our off days and days when we just want to give up on life, but we are slowly but surely figuring out how to help and lean on each other!

Going back to the video, those women were putting everything they had in order to get 4th place.  No prestigious award, just the knowledge that they did it.  I feel like I'm fighting for 4th place right now.  But after it's all said and done, I'll have the knowledge that I did it.  And that's a wonderful thing for me.