Just Believe

We're getting down to the wire here!  David's concert is a week from today, which means he will be a fully qualified teacher!  I'm thinking that will help a little bit in the job search.  Hopefully.  I don't know about David, but I'm getting very worried about where we're going to be in January.  I really hate moving, but I know in the next month, we're going to have to move at least twice.  Once back to Rexburg where we'll be for Christmas, and then once when we find a place to stay.  I really really hate being homeless.  David's applied for many jobs but hasn't had any luck.  Some places I don't feel really comfortable applying to, like places where the population of the town is about 500 or where there is a lot of people under the poverty line, but we apply anyways because some job is better than no job.  David might have to work with my brother, David, in Wyoming.  He drives these huge trucks for the coal mines there.  It pays really well!  But isn't the most stimulating job.  You work 4 days on, 4 days off and have 12 hour shifts.  They work night and day, almost every day of the year. 

It's very frustrating for David not to have a job because I feel like we have both been doing all we can to make it happen.  David's been working on getting a lot of contacts in this area in case a job opens up, and I've been looking online for job postings and helping him fill out applications since he is usually gone from 6:45am till about 4:30pm.  I've also been praying A LOT about this and fasting as well.  When I get especially worried about it, I just get the answer that Heavenly Father will take care of it.  That things will work out.  That is the most frustrating answer for me!  I like to know what's going to happen, especially with something this important.  I like to have a plan.  I guess He's just testing my faith.  And boy is it a big test. 

Something that has helped put things into perspective for me is a book I'm reading.  I found it on one of the bookshelves here.  Grandpa and Gayle have soooo many books!  And about 99% of them are religious.  So when I needed an uplifting book to read, I didn't have to look long!  I'm reading "The History of Joseph Smith by His Mother".  It's an amazing book and I'm learning so many things about their family.  I learned that Lucy Mack Smith's brother ended up being a "faith healer" and basically disappeared for 20 years and nobody knew where he went.  Her family was also very religious.  And I also learned that early in their marriage, Lucy and Joseph got the same revelation (although not in the same way) that Joseph got about the many religions of the day.  That there was no religion that had the fullness of the gospel.  No denomination had any more truths than the other.  It got me thinking about how God really did prepare the way for Joseph Smith, by providing him with religious parents who understood that there was something more for them to learn.  And that got me thinking about our situation.  I honestly hope this is the lowest point (financially) in our lives.  It is so stressful, and takes such a toll on you.  It's always in the back of your mind.  But now I know what it's like, to have that awful feeling.  And I know what a blessing it is when other people reach out to help you!  So I just have to trust that God is preparing us for better things, when we are in a situation to help others because we know what it's like.  So I'll just keep saying my prayers and have faith that since we are doing all that we can do, we will be taken care of.